This year so far for me has been about letting go.
Largely it has been people that have been taking themselves out one by one, and for some reason I have fully let this happen. Rather than hold on (as I have the habit of trying to do) I have allowed them to go. I have welcomed the exit of their collective energy from my life.
The last few years for me have been a period where I have largely not been myself, I have instead been drowning in the energy of others and it has had a detrimental affect on my both mentally and physically. I have been drained, consumed and out of character for the last 2-3 years. Somewhere along the way I woke up, I started putting boundaries in place and speaking my truth, and this alone allowed the ones that were not meant to be present to eradicate themselves from my life.
Having been so used to being the giver, the healer and the fixer of things, I had managed to collect energies that were very draining and superficial. Although it took some time to release the guilt and allow these friendships to diminish, I think for the first time in a long, long time, I feel more like me.
Allowing these energies to be released from me has seemed to have given me a new lease on life. I am suddenly alive, less in pain and more coherently functional than I have been in some time.
The lesson I have learnt here is a great one, and that is to always be true to yourself and your own feelings. Don’t allow yourself to feel like less of a human being because someone else deems it so. You have the right to think and to feel as you do, so don’t change to suit another person or swallow your opinion or lower your boundaries just to satisfy someone else.
Off course in every interaction between two people, there are compromises, but this does not mean that you should be heard any less or invalidated.
So if you find that something or someone is just not working for you anymore energetically, assess the situation and really think about whether or not you need to let it go.
We all need to have an energetic cleanse every now and then and it can really help clear your energy fields and align you with the right track in your life again.